August already sucks big time

To be honest with you, August was already doomed prior to it even beginning. On the 6th, my girlfriend is moving over a thousand miles away to attend College. Let me first start off by saying that I had told her from when she originally mentioned it some time back that if she really wanted to go back to school go for it.

Then, a few months ago, she had lined it up and the days have been dwindling since. I already miss her, and she's not even left yet. I'm going to be so bored.... so bored. She occupies around 85% of my time per month, so... I have no clue what I'll be doing.

You know what else is weird? In the last week or so Playstation 3 has lost its fun. I think that is because I know soon I'll no longer need to "squeeze in a few Call of Duty maps" in between doing work or spending time with her. A lot of things lose their appeal when you can do them all day I guess....

So, I've been thinking I should probably do what I do best when I need to deal with my emotions. I'll bury myself in work. It's not like I've not been a complete slacking ass lump of crap lately in that area. Sure, I have my moments, but it's been almost a year since I really "put forth lots of effort" or "had the desire" you might say. Thankfully, I have Adam. He's great and he for some wierd reason can tolerate me on a daily basis, which, props to you for that, not many can. Ecspecially on a business and personal level without either ever interferring with the other.

I came back from vacation in March or April or something. I'm not 100% sure -- maybe February... it was half a year vacation so I don't remember. But, from then I busted out a lot of small projects. I've also had others in the works. I've done my blog, my Free Web Directory, my Free Porn Site, did complete rewrites and overhauls of a few sites I cannot mention here, and I have a few others in the work. I'm working on an image hosting site. I know a lot of people have done them and I'll never be imageshack or anything like that, but it's something mainly for my own usage, ecspecially between clone sites I operate (which will be growing too). Nothing like moving mbs upon mbs of stupid images to every clone. I also still need to work on my free arcade game site. That was going well until I started playing in Photoshop and got sidetracked for some weeks and made the porn site.

Hmm, yes, back on topic. Small projects are fine, but now I definitly will be having vast amounts of free time. I'm 27 now, all of my friends have kids and can't do much. I don't go to clubs or bars so I'm pretty much going back to being a geek. Which is cool, I've missed it. It's been quite sometime. I guess what I'm saying is that I really want to be part of a community, or be involved in a long-term project. Something that will take a few years of development. Something to occupy me for a while. You get the point. But what? That's a good question, and if I knew the anwser I wouldn't be babbling on my blog at 5:25 about 100 random things no one cares about.

If you remember a little bit ago I went off a bit about how boring the internet is and I think it's because I have nothing to do really. I work, and that's it. Eventually you burn out or run out of stuff to do. In the past, during my hardcore internet addiction I was often a part of a community; often they were made by myself. I miss it, to a degree. I belong to some forums for this or that but eventually the conversation becomes recycled mumbo jumbo that I've heard a thousand times over. Other times the people who run it sell it to someone who turns it to crap or the people can't afford to run it anymore and shut down.

I have to say that in the whole time I've been writing this (which hasn't been aslong as it might seem. I type pretty fast) I've yet to come up with some idea, or some place to go. The only things I've really consistantly been passionate about over the years is code and web development. There's lots of communities out there for that but most of the ones I know of are way to big to really want to join. I always like a more personal interaction with the members of the community than just being one of thousands of daily posters. It's hard to find places like that now days.

So yes, as I was saying. August sucks ass, and it just started. On top of that, our country is in the shitter big time and our government (or lack of for a better term) is fucking us big time.

The end.

aktdo on 08-02-2009 10:06 PM wrote:

Ya, you better suck up.

Next time I want the article titl to say how cool I am.

bterrill on 08-05-2009 09:54 AM wrote:

I wouldn't go that far....